I haven’t wrote a blog since the first week, and I’m not really sure why because I love to write. I think it’s a great way to get out what you’re feeling, and blogging is even better because then people can see what you have to say and learn from it. I’ve been choosing to journal over blog which for me seemed like the better choice, and also easier. But now I’m realizing that it’s not just about me, it’s about the people who might come on this trip later or the people who need to read something that might help their relationship with God. So now that I’ve realized this, I look back over all the time that has passed and try to think of something that’s worth blogging over.
I have many stories that I could tell or many revelations that I’ve had. I think those would be good things to say and I probably will, but not for this one. What I want to talk about is how much has changed since my first week being here, and why. Going day to day it’s hard to see the improvements you make because generally they are so little. But looking over weeks of change, it’s tremendous. The things I’m doing, the things I’m saying, these are things I wouldn’t dreamed of doing the first week here. The things I’ve learned here, about myself, about other people, and about God, now that is what’s really amazing. I don’t need to go into detail because what I grew in will be different than what someone else will grow in. The point is that it happened, and I changed. I knew that I would be a different person coming out of this, but to be able to be that person and to know what it feels like is something I can’t explain.
So this blog is for those who might think it’s impossible to change, or might think that they are trying but it’s not working. I just want to remind you that ALL things are possible with God. You can do all things through Him. You can’t do it with Him in the back of your head, or with Him on the bottom of your priority list. I’ve tried that, it doesn’t work. Being here has showed me how important it is that God is my number one priority over absolutely anything, and that spending time with him every single day is vital to growth. Building relationships is another thing I have learned here. Not just with God, but with everybody. However that relationship with God is the first relationship you must make to be able to do His work like He called us to do. God can perform miracles and anybody can be that miracle if you make the choice to spend that time with Him.
The person I am now compared to the person I was when I wrote the first blog is very different. I mean I am the same person, but I’m a person who is now filled with God and aware of all the things He has given me and wants me to be. This missions trip did that, God did that, and I am so unbelievably thankful, and forever will be.
