God knows what I need even when I don’t.
I needed to come to training camp; I needed to meet these people; I needed to sing those songs; and I needed to hear every word that was spoken.
I need to go to Honduras.
I believe that Jesus is going to continue to give me exactly what I need throughout this entire summer. What I needed from this training camp was freedom, and oh man did the Lord provide it!
Though I didn’t know it, there were four things I NEEDED to be set free from before I went out…
1.Fear of meeting different people.
Because my Father knows me so intimately, he knows what I lack and exactly who to bring alongside me to fill in those gaps. Choosing to be fearful or closed to these people would be like choosing to reject a wonderful gift from my loving Father. I already know that God is going to intentionally use each one of my amazing teammates as long as I’m open to it.
2. Fear of making a fool of myself…
Yelling, jumping, cupid-shuffling, wobble-ing, and just about anything was fair game these past days and I needed to participate in the foolery. I had to let go of whatever foolish belief I had that made me afraid of embarrassing myself every so often.
3.Fear of sweat, dirt, bugs, or anything that came from the great outdoors
Ant bites, dew, dirt, sweat, and even paint have all covered me in these 4 short days. I have a good feeling that this list will grow and Jesus just needed me to be okay with that. It’s going to happen and it’s going to be okay.
4.Fear of letting go
I’ve had to abandon it all. Friends, family, comforts, familiarity, worldly identity, and even more had to be given up and I’m not even out of the country yet! The Lord needs me to drop the weights that hold me back so I can be free to RUN after whatever it is that lies ahead.
I think that in every season the Lord has a different type of freedom available to me. These are the freedoms that came from training camp. My prayer is that I will be able to continue in humility and listen for his guidance and encouragement towards new freedoms. For now, I’m rejoicing in the miracle that because of Jesus I am fearless and forever free.
“For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self control”
-2 Timothy 1:7
