Within five hours of being in Honduras, my heart was convicted. We were all sitting in the living room learning about the ministry taking place here in Honduras and what Gracie’s plan for Heart of Christ is, when Gracie called me out on the spot. She was talking about how she is learning to trust in the Lord and how He will always give you more than you can handle so you have to lean on Him and won’t try and fight earthly troubles by yourself. All of a sudden she couldn’t stop looking into my eyes, every time she would look away she was drawn right back. She brought this to my attention and said I really feel like I am supposed to be talking to you about trust, and that you are in a time of your life where trusting the Lord is tough. In that moment my eyes filled with tears. All week at training camp I prayed about trust every time I prayed and I journaled about giving up control and believing in the Lord nine times in three days. It was quite honestly the only thing on my mind. At one point in my journal the word trust is just randomly in quotations at the bottom of a page. How would Gracie know that I personally needed to be reminded of this? It wouldn’t be possible without the Holy Spirit. He gave her a prophetic word and without her knowing she was able to encourage my walk with Christ. I truly believe God spoke to me through her.
I struggle to trust God because I can’t see any logic and common sense in the things that He does, but this is because He is so much bigger than what my own mind can understand. Proverbs 3:5-6 has been speaking to me a lot lately. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” To be completely honest I don’t know why I am here and I don’t know what God has in store for me, but I’m realizing I don’t need to because God has a plan for me and has way bigger things in store for my life than I could ever imagine. The Holy Spirit knew I needed a sign that He was with me and He showed up through Gracie. I’ve never felt the presence of the Holy Spirit that strong and to be reminded of how all knowing He is that soon after getting here leaves me wanting more and more of Him. I can trust the Lord will show himself to the women and children we are working with even though they are in a very dark place. Will you let God take control and trust him with what he has in store for you? Or will you continue to hold back and try and take control of your own life?
