The Lord has been speaking to me a lot lately about my calling. For the longest time, I knew I was being called to mission work. I am so excited, though, that it is becoming clearer what that means. For a while I thought that meant that I would live in some super crazy place in some far off land having some over-the-top ministry. That is actually not at all what my heart feels anymore. Father God has been taking me deeper into His intentions. I have realized that my definition of missions is a lot different from God’s definition for me. I have learned a lot about the heart that the Lord created in me during my time here.
God spoke to me.
He told me I am a missionary to the Church. I am a shepherd. I am a vessel to the Body.
It is not a coincidence that during my time in Honduras I have lived with a total of over one hundred North American Christians. At first I was hesitant to believe that they were a huge part of my ministry here in Honduras. The Lord had to break off from me my pre-conceived notions of what ministry would look like. The Lord had to break off the mindset I had of missions only being to the lost. The thought that the Lord wanted to use me more for the sake of the Church did not settle well with me at first. This is something, though, that God has been taking me through every day.
My friend prophesied these words over my life:
“You will be used to raise up the Church of Jesus Christ from this shell of a church we have in America. You will be used to raise up an apostolic and prophetic people who live in the presence and are constantly in dialogue with the Father. You will be used to raise up a people of unconditional, unceasing grace whose hearts burn for the abandoned, the hurt, the broken, the lost. You will be used to raise up a people of mission. You will be used to raise up a people of glory. You will be used as not just a brother to many—but a father to many. Your ministry will be marked by humility, honor, and power that can only come from the Holy Ghost.”
I want to take a moment to reflect on God’s greatness right now. Each day He takes me deeper. He has provided for me in absolutely indescribable ways. It is what He does. He takes my ideas and replaces them with His heart. He takes my theology and replaces it with Himself. He takes my plans and replaces them with His will. He takes my pain and replaces it with His presence. Yesterday during worship I heard what sounded like a river. I saw a river rushing out of Heaven and flooding the Earth. Your kingdom come Lord, Your will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.
I want this idea to characterize my work as a missionary to the Church. I need the river of His kingdom to flood my life. That is my heart. That every conversation I have is prophetic. That what is supernatural becomes familiar. I pray that I would have an increasing hunger for all gifts of the Spirit. I pray that I would continue to grow in each gift as I learn how to walk in that place with the Spirit where I am abiding in Him in everything that I do. I want to see more angels and cast out more demons. I want to know the heart of my Father. I want to know His Word. I want to walk in my identity as a son of God. I want to do everything I do in love. Without love I have nothing.
Continue to pray that Father God will make His calling on my life more clear and that I will be receptive to what He is going to teach me and reveal to me for the remainder of my time here.
